Well, I’m back again!
For a while I honestly wasn’t sure if I would ever blog again. I had an experience with the bad side of
internet accessibility which considerably shook me up, and which still lends a
bit of hesitancy to my actions. However,
I have really missed blogging, and I think that if it’s done responsibly (which
I hope I accomplish) there’s no harm in it.
So, this is me, getting back on the horse after a bad fall.
The main catalyst for this blog post is a song. People who know me know that I really don’t
listen to the radio and I’m rarely up on popular music. I’m much more likely to be cruising down the
road listening to soundtracks than to be rocking out to the Top 20. However, I found myself watching part of the
Country Music Awards this past Wednesday.
I heard a lot of new, good music, but one song in particular caught my
attention, and it’s been stuck in my head ever since. The song, If I Die Young, by The Band Perry,
is very popular, and for good reason. It’s
a beautiful, haunting song.
Obviously, it’s a lovely song. One line in particular, though, has been
reverberating around my head and really making me think.
“I’ve had just enough time.”
In a song about dying young, this statement really stands
out. It makes me wonder…if I were to die
tomorrow, would I feel like I’ve had enough time? Am I living my life in such a way that I am
accomplishing my dreams, that I’m making a difference, that I’m doing more than
just living?
Recently, I’ve probably been especially guilty of getting
through things just to get through them.
It’s sort of a defensive response to grad school; if I can just survive
this seminar discussion, complete this assignment, get through this week of
teaching, I can move on. But really,
this isn’t a satisfying way to live.
So, now, I’m going to change that. When I die, God willing many many years from
now, I want to be able to say that I’ve had just enough time. I accomplished the things I wanted to
accomplish, I made a difference in some way, but I didn’t live too long. I’m living with purpose and joy starting…now.
